It feels like my heart is falling to pieces and I have no way of communicating how I feel to anyone. No one on my course seems to notice me anyway. I just vanish and they don’t even fucking realise. I’ve tried to open up to some of them and all I get is rejected. I thought one guy, Jack, was actually my friend, but it seems I can’t trust any of them. I should have stayed at Elstree. At least I had a friend there. I had hope of doing something with my life. I have no idea what to do now.